Growing up was never easy...

When I was a kid I always thought things were easy. Just like picking my favorite color, or making friends with just one "hello", or even smiling. But when life decided to let me see what was beyond my innocence, I pushed myself harder to pick the best color of them all, or not trusting anyone or even faking a smile to everyone. I never had stable friends or even close friends. I was never a favorite, I always got bullied, I always try hard in school but still not making it and most of all I am always clumsy at everything, funny how fate has locked my luck. I don't know why people always make fun of me its like every time they see me they always have something to say, things that are bad. Growing up was never easy, being a grown up is much harder but it doesn't mean I wanna go back. I wanna be where I am now, not hiding nor hating but just being myself. How did I do it? I say "Let it go". You'll never move forward unless you  learn to let lose the past behind you. You'll never change what its done but you have the chance to live life, and by that it means fixing what has been broken. I always believe that there's more to life than just being miserable. But I'm not saying that my life is perfect, it has its ups and downs too just like you, just like everybody else. What some people didn't understand is that life wants us to wake up, life is honest. But still certain people say that life is shitty, life sucks and tried to blame life to their broken dreams and broken hearts and through that people hurt and lie to other people, but these reasons are just to whom who are playing safe and selfish. I never said that I never did it, but that's the thing that I should have never done.

When I grew up I learned so many things in life, do you know what's the only thing that can lead you to failure? Its the fear to follow ones heart. Life is pointless and do you know what God wants us to find? Money? no, big houses? no, Education? no to be rich and famous? Definitely no. The only thing that He wants us to find is happiness, and I admit that I'm still on the hunt. That's the reason why even though you have the money in the world and if you hear them people say that they are happy with it, in reality those are the people who are really lonely. As what they say "Important things in life aren't things". 

Life is really full of surprises, its the way it is. Don't think that your unfortunate to have it. Life just wants you to be stronger. So whatever comes your way take it as a challenge and be positive. Before I never appreciated what I have I didn't have friends but I have the best of friends, and I trust them. I thought my parents didn't love me but I realized that all this time everything they did for me to have a good life is because they love me. So learn to appreciate things that you thought you didn't have. Live life and love God that's all what it takes.